When I started this blog I didn’t know anything about blogging and the blogging community.
I didn’t think anyone would read these posts other than my family and friends overseas; they were the audience in mind when I started this blog. I wanted them to feel close to me and see what my life is like now, through pictures and posts, to bridge the immense distance between us.
Initially, I didn’t want to post anything too personal because I’m a private person. But blogging became somewhat therapeutic. I wrote about closure, friendship, coping with OCD and little things such as my skinny frame.
All these posts are a part of me. They’re not superficial snippets of a glamorous life. But recently I’ve been asked why I don’t post Lookposts and my everyday beauty routine. That by posting that kind of content I’ll have a wider audience.
This isn’t a fashion or beauty blog, but I understand that they are amongst the most popular blogs out there, if only for the pretty pictures. I have nothing against them but, I’m not a fashion or beauty blogger. In fact, I don’t know the first thing about either of those things.
Recently I’ve seen many new blogs and they’re all very similar. By that I mean that everyone nowadays wants to be a fashion blogger and wants to be popular and have a fan base. As much as I love my blog, it isn’t to gain popularity; it isn’t my life and I don’t intend for it to be.
Blogging for popularity reminds me of Facebook likes, which is something I wanted to post about before. I know people who accept friend requests from strangers just to get likes on their pictures. In my opinion Facebook logic has graduated to this: The more friends you have on Facebook, the more popular you are. The more likes you have on your pictures, the more popular you are.
The less clothes you’re wearing The more controversial and provocative the picture, the more likes it’s going to get.
Life isn’t a popularity contest, people. Social networking sites and blogging shouldn’t be an indication of your worth. Because it isn’t.
Not too long ago I thought about whether or not I want to continue blogging, because of those very reasons. But one of the reasons I decided to keep this blog is because I’d like my kids to see what I was like before I was their mother.
It’s a footprint etched on the Internet. I’d like to think that I don’t have an ugly, tainted view of the world. I’d also like to think that I don’t pander to superficiality and a lifestyle where acquiring stuff equals happiness.
Because I wouldn’t want my kids to see the world that way. Despite all the ugliness, I want them to see how beautiful and precious life can be and I want them to be humble and not fall prey to believing that the more you have, the happier you are.
Maybe thinking that way is over-thinking. I’m only 22 years old.I don’t even have children.
But this is who I am.
And for now, that’s why I blog.
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