It’s been 3 weeks since my last post and this is overdue but, Ramadaan Kareem to all those who fast during this month.
In Jordan, Ramadaan started on the 10th of July and, although it feels like the month just started, almost half of the month is gone.
I’ve spent less time on the Internet in order to spend more time reading Quraan. Truth be told, prior to Ramadaan I hoped that I’d spend less time on social networking sites because it felt like a waste of time; an addictive waste of time.
Ramadaan is a month where I try to let go of bad habits, practice good habits and hopefully continue them even after Ramadaan because I, like every other human-being, have my shortcomings.
I swear every now and then, even when I’m excited. I don’t read as much Quraan throughout the year but when I do I feel an inner peace that’s difficult to put into words. I feel as though I don’t give enough to charity because with all that I have, I can give a lot more. Many times I’m quick to judge and have to remind myself that everyone has their struggles; I don’t know what’s in someone else’s heart, so how can I judge them?
Those are four things that come to mind. Four things that I’m working on. I’m not striving for perfection, but I’m sure I can be better than I am now. It’s not to say that I haven’t tried spending less time online before, or that I haven’t tried not to swear at all, it’s just easier to do so during Ramadaan, for me at least.
There are daily disordered, chaotic thoughts in my mind, but since Ramadaan has started I’ve been relatively calm and content. Not a crazy, almost psychotic happiness that I get from over-excitement or too much caffeine, but a genuine contentment in terms of my faith.
I know that in today’s world atheism is equated with intellectualism and a higher IQ whereas having faith/religion is regarded as believing in Hogwarts or Narnia. But I’m not an Atheist. I have a lot of faith. And if that makes me ‘stupid’ then, sure.
We may come from different backgrounds and have different religions, but we all have inner conflicts and struggles that we hope to overcome. We all have strengths and weaknesses. We’ve all done things that we are proud and ashamed of.
At the end of the day, we’re all just people.
Some of us make New Year’s resolutions. Others say they’ll start tomorrow, or next month or when the sky is purple instead of blue. Fortunately for me, the start of Ramadaan was a push I needed in order to do what I feel needs to be done in my life. And I’m beyond grateful to have had a beautiful Ramadaan so far.
For those who fast during the holy month of Ramadaan, I wish you contentment, patience and love. May Allah’s blessings be upon you and your family.
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